What drives you! What is your motivation to live? Why do you do the things you do and why do you think the way you think? What inspires you everyday? Why do you live? What sparks the fire in your heart and lights the shine in your eyes! I have a dream of what my life will be like! I have one single vision that drives me every single day! Every experience I have, every memory I create, every mistake I learn from, I hope they all roll into a single ball and fly me into this single moment that I look forward to every day!
Sometimes I think what's the point? Why are we here! Everyone has their purpose, I'm sure! But why do we go through all this hard work to just die. O.k that's a bit harsh and dramatic but sometimes this goes through my mind! I guess those are the 'who am I?' days...'could I be doing something more?' actually 'SHOULD I be doing something more' days.
But then I remember this vision, this dream, this goal. This is what makes me happy and excites me and motivates me every day to get there. This is why I document our lives, every second, every minute, every smile, every tear. I want to remember...forever.
There is a house! A nice, gorgeous house, nothing huge but big enough to have housed, fed and comforted a few children's souls. This house doesn't have the latest gadgets or modern furnishings but comforting decor and children's paintings on the wall. Their heights etched into the walls with tiny little fingers and memories of their little faces looking so excited of the 1 centimeter they have grown since last time! This house has a veranda! A front veranda or full surrounding veranda, it doesn't matter but a veranda. There are two white wooden rocking chairs, faded by the afternoon sun that shines upon them every day. They creak with each single rock over the wooden veranda. These rocking chairs are surrounded by old pots and jugs filled with blooming flowers, favourites that bring memories from earlier years. There is a wheelbarrow in the corner. Old and rusty. It's growing herbs. Their scent is picked up by the afternoon breeze and is sent sailing through the veranda and into the house. Delicate chimes hang from the ceiling and form an orchestra with the native birds. Everyone is in harmony serenading the afternoon with their peaceful chimes and chirps.
He sits there. Dark leather skin from the years of enjoying his favourite past time of fishing in the sun. Hard, course blistered hands from working with every ounce of energy he had to provide an enriched life for our family. Wrinkles surrounding his gorgeous face, wrinkles that show and remind me of every worry he had protecting me and our family. That sparkle. That sparkle in his bright blue eyes is still there. Its never faded. Never will. The sparkle in his eyes captures me and opens the door straight into his soul. The sparkle is his reason. Why he does what he does. Why I fell in love the minute they captured mine in the evening light of December 02. He reaches out his hand and holds mine. We smile. Oh boy do we smile. We are looking through pages upon pages of memories. Memories of the good times. Memories of the sad times. Every crisp or blurry photo brings us back to a special time in our lives. Every word and dramatic sentence ignites a fire of memories that once made us smile and still does in our mature years.
Our children have grown up and have moved away and have started families of their own. Here we sit, older, on our gorgeous veranda of our beautiful house and remember. We remember every single special moment because they are the memories that have lasted forever. We close our eyes and smile. We know we have lived a truly spectacular life and everything we have done or not done has brought us to this very special moment of just being together and remembering.
And that is it. That is what drives me every single day. That is why I take photos of everything and why I write this blog. I do it for us. For our family. So when we are 80 and sitting on our rocking chairs, our memories a little faded, we can open up a book or a photo album and have the memories sore like an eagle straight into our hearts.
We may not save the world, or discovery a cure, or win any awards. But we have each other and I know we will do great things. When life get tough, or we fight, or people disappoint us, or we have money troubles, I take myself to this place. I take myself to that veranda and I know it is all part of our plan. Every joyous moment, every bump in the road. It all happens for a reason and will be a memory in our book to enjoy reading about on our veranda...together.
That is why I write, that is why I take millions of photos,
and that is why I do what I do...
How could you not love the weekend when it starts off like this! Magic!
I got home Friday night from work and had 2 special visits from our dear friends! Life gets very busy and unfortunately that means that visits and catch ups become less frequent with some people! Although I love when you haven't seen someone in months and you get together for a quick Friday night catch up and it was like no time had passed! I like those moments.
Saturday morning I woke up at 7am! I love a good sleep in! Mostly because I don't sleep much at night therefore, once I'm asleep, I take advantage of being asleep. So weekends are alarm free and I mostly sleep the mornings away! Not this Saturday! I was excited! My best friend had just moved into her brand new house and I was going to visit her! Her gorgeous new house and her gorgeous baby bump! She is due in 3 -4 weeks!!! Um can somebody say AMAZING! This house is just a dream, her dream, and the happiness I felt when I entered just warmed my heart! Michelle and her husband have waited and waited for this house for so long and have worked their butts off to get there and finally it has all paid off and they are living their dream! There is something so beautiful and peaceful about a brand new home! And just in time to welcome their little miracle!
After my visit I had booked in with the beautiful Leanne from Lea-Beauty Pamper Room - I don't want to go into too much of what happened here, but in short I got very lost and very sick so I missed my appointment! Along with the sickness I felt very guilty as I had asked Leanne especially to fit me in! I'm so sorry for missing it! If you ever need ANY beauty treatments and are around the gold coast area Leanne is your girl! She has amazing products and is very talented!!! Head on over to her facebook page and check her out!
Saturday afternoon brought another storm! Our 'summer storms' have come along a bit early this year and each weekend has been going off with a bang! Literally!
I've mentioned before that I love Scissors Paper Rock's prints and this one is no exception! It has it's special place in our kitchen and reminds me every day to live life to fullest and even though things get a bit 'stormy' at times I should always find the silver lining! Well Saturday I took this quote literally and I danced in the rain! This storm was so beautiful! I just could not sit inside and let it pass I had to go out and experience it! It was truly amazing! I just stood in the middle of my street and felt and experienced all the changes! The view was spectacular!!! After a horrible experience at lunch this really blew out the negativity around me and put a spring back in my step!
The storm left as quickly as it came and we were into the car and off to our next 'event' Bowling for our good friends 30th birthday! How much fun is bowling! No matter what your age, it is always fun! Rob and I arrived late becasue of the storm so we got a lane to ourselves! man Vs wife! It was on! Ok so I lost both times but hey it was my first time bowling without bumpers so I think I did a pretty good job! I was actually beating Rob in our 2nd game till about the 7th round...damit! After bowling we headed out to a Mediterranean restaurant for dinner! It was deliciousness! I had a lamb and beef-curry-pot-sorta-thingy. What ever it was it was YUM! oh and I fell in love with their hummus dip! real proper hummus dip...no store bought stuff!
~ Got to love party bags at a 30th! Massive hit! ~
Sunday morning I was up early again! WHAT THE! I have no idea what is going on there! I decided to embrace it and get up a do a yoga session! I am totally digging yoga at the moment! I'm loving it purely for the stretching at the moment. I'm only doing it at home from an iphone app - gotta love iphones- so I haven't been able to experience the meditation/energy side yet but the stretching is totally amazing and I am loving it! I cant wait to actually find the time to go to a proper class and be taught by an instructor! But for the moment my app is doing me just fine!
I spent the rest of the morning in the pool with the animals and then watching a movie hahah I think I've mentioned before that I spend a lot of time alone with my animals! Rob was out again but thankfully not working! He was out with the boys 4wding! He loves it! It makes him happy therefore I am happy!
When Rob came home we went to our neighbours for a BBQ and to watch the footy! A nice relaxing afternoon with great friends! Perfect end to a perfect weekend!
A lovely lady is feeling a bit sad today! This is quite out of character for her as she is one of the most loving and sweetest people I have 'met'. I want her to know that we are all here for you and we are sending all of our love, support and extra big hugs your way!
Sometimes it's ok to cry and sometimes it's ok to be sad. But always know that after the tears, just like the rain, a beautiful rainbow will appear and tomorrow will be a bright and beautiful day!
~ Their memory and souls are in your heart forever ~
I haven't done a week-a-boo in so long! I guess weekends get so busy and the weeks are even busier that by the time I sit down to think about writing about my weekend then next has rolled along. Even though Claire from Scissors Paper Rock doesn't get to week-a-boo much these days either...I'm sure for the very same reason..you all must go and read her blog. Her writing is so beautiful and real.
This weekend started off with a bang! literally...a massive bang! We woke up to a very big and loud storm. Boom!!! The first thunder that woke me was at 7.00am and I shot straight out of bed and raced into Ruby! We are pretty lucky with all of our animals. They are storm lovers like their mummy and daddy. Our beautiful Bindi LIVES for the rain. The minute it hits shes out there chasing it and jumping at the rain drops. Shes a special kind of something ;) haha anyway this storm was Ruby's first so I was worried about her. But as I got to her cage she was sound asleep in her bed! Bless! the storm didn't even faze her! We brought all the animals inside however and had a Saturday morning storm party in the back room! 2 dogs 2 birds and a cat just chilling and hanging out while listening to the booms and the clashes. Miss Ruby was delighted with the storm. She was laughing the entire time and singing and chatting away!
Poor Bindi! Robs mission is for 'everyone to live in harmony'
hahah look at poor Bindis eyes! She so sad! Get this dam bird off my head hahah
While I was prepping for my tests and recovering, I did a lot of research on food and diet for eclectus parrots. I found a lot of native trees that are really good for them to nibble at and chew on! So Rob and I are going to start giving her a branch a week to play with and eat! Her first this week was a callistemon!
She LOVED it!
After the storm had past and all the animals were back inside cages and outside, I went back to bed. Those silly tests really knocked me round and I was just so exhausted I slept the entire day! I woke up in the afternoon feeling a bit better but still a bit sore! hahah if that makes any sense??? Rob took me out to our local nursery to get me out of the house and to buy some new herbs for my new pots for the kitchen. We went with basil, chives, mint and rosemary. I think we will use these 4 in most of our cooking! We came home and potted them and I am so happy with the way they turned out! They look FABULOUS in the kitchen on the windows edge!
After potting our plants we went over to visit out next door neighbours and took Ruby with us! I love our neighbours. Beside, behind, diagonal. We are so lucky where we live and we have become very close friends with all of our neighbours. With my best friend down one end of the street and my cousin down the other I am in the most perfect position! We have created a little community and it makes me happy and feel safe. We just sat down and had a talk and a laugh. It was great to be out of bed and enjoy special peoples company.
Miss Ruby opening up a beer for daddy at our neighbours bar! CUTE!
Sunday morning I was woken up to breakfast in bed. Rob had made me scrambled eggs using our fresh new herbs. It was deliscous and it was nice to be spoilt. Rob and I have been taking turns each Sunday morning to make breakfast for each other. It has become a little unspoken and unplanned tradition. Even though Rob is working most Sundays its our little time that we take just for us!
This was a beautiful start to my day and as Rob went off to work I got myself up and decided to enjoy the beautiful weather instead of wasting it away in bed like I had the past couple of days. I spent the day cleaning and playing in the backyard with the animals. I do this a lot lately. It gets lonely with Rob working a lot but I am so grateful to have such beautiful animals that love me unconditionally and are so much fun. haha oh o I'm that crazy lady with all the animals. Oh well its true and I wouldn't change it for the world. Ruby went for her first surf in the pool! She also went for a dip! It was funny, she spread out her wings and just glided in the water on my hand. I didn't get her too wet as I'm not sure if the pool water would be good for her so I bathed her straight away just in case!
3.00 came and it was time to go to a special girls birthday party! My cousin (who is also one of my best friends and lives down the road) her daughter turned 5 today! I headed off for a family celebration with laughter, food and cake...there's always cake! mmmm! I had a fabulous afternoon! My family is so hilarious! there is so much laughter and joy that surrounds every get together that makes me so happy! We have fun together and that whats so important.
Look at that sausage! Now that's a sausage!
The weekend came and went so quickly and before I knew it I was at family dinner at mum and dads house. I got these beautiful flowers from Rod and my favourite chocolate! What a beautiful sweetheart. He knew I was feeling a bit yukky after my tests so he bought me them to cheer me up! I cried! What beautiful gesture!
They fit perfectly in my new beautiful kitchen. O.k so its years old but its amazing what 4 new pots, 2 new chairs and a beautiful bunch of flowers can do!
Well that last post was a bit depressing so I need something to make me smile! I think its time for an update on our gorgeous Ruby! The last time I wrote about her HERE she was only a baby. She was 43 days old and was still growing her feathers, I was hand feeding her 3 times a day and she was still in her 'brooder'.
Ruby 43 days old
Well here is she today at 5 months old!
She has found her place in our family of animals and has stolen our hearts. She is eating successfully on her own and loves and I mean LOVES a good chat! She can already say hello and hi and she meows and laughs. and last night the most amazing thing happened. I was playing with her and went into the kitchen to get her a treat and she yelled "sarah" it was clear as day and I nearly fell over! She doesn't say anything on command yet but chats away in her own time. She is always having a good laugh! A big hearty HA HA HA - wonder where she gets that from! Here are some photos of growing up over the past couple of months. She goes everywhere with us! I love taking her on little trips. We have even been to the beach!